epiphany.

so i finally realized something today.
i realized that there isn't one person that fits you or matches your standards 100%,
whether that be a friend or a significant other.
for the longest time, i've always looked for people that were "my kind of people", ones with perfect personalities, outlooks, etc.. (under my terms). obviously, i've never found a single person that matches this criteria perfectly.
and for the longest time i was so... disappointed and lonely.

but today, something just clicked and i realized that it's okay to trust and confide and draw closer to some people
in my life and that sometimes, there are more ups than downs...
not everyone lets you down and sometimes, they understand you.

as stupid as it may be, i was so comforted today by this little epiphany i had.
it feels like a huge burden was lifted off my shoulders today. i don't know what it was...
maybe my insecurities or lack of trust in people in general or selfishness...
but i haven't felt this kind of peace before in this area of my life. not that i'm living alone in solitude or anything,
but many times, i've felt so lonely even with so many people around me.



thus, today was a great day.